Mary

Thank you for inviting me here,

Everything looks lovely.
Your parents are the best, dear

Life is so grand.

This meat is to tasty, so tender.

Must not have more than three bites though.

I'll have a few more green beans,

No, I really am quite full.

Excuse me for a moment,

Be back in a second.

I need to be alone for a while.

Pardon me.

The mirror is stained and my vision is blurry

And my old friend greets me again.

Staring back into the eyes of an angel

who's fallen, fallen again.

I wish I were a princess,

So fair and so thin.

Instead of feeling feeble from

Losing weight again.

Why am I doing this to myself

What am I doing this for

Why do I do this to myself

Who am I doing this for

I wish I were prettier

I wish I were thinner

Time to dry my eyes now,

my food's getting cold.

Lies

It's my fault.

I don't deserve better

I deserve to be treated this way.

I don't care how long you are gone.

I understand that you cannot be faithful.

It's my fault.
These are tears of happiness.
My makeup covers the bruise.

You didn't mean to do it.

I sometimes make you hit me.

It's my fault.
I think you are a good spouse.
I feel safe with you.
I don't want to run away from you.

This is where I belong.

Lost and Found

As emotions and commotion
tend to swirl and surround…
We are lost and found

Our souls are hollow, simply follow
‘cause we’re blind and bound…
We are lost and found

Time for battle, herded cattle
On the proving grounds...
We are lost and found

Overburdened, that’s for certain
And now we've been crowned….
We are lost and found

They enslave us, and betray us
Spin us ‘round and ‘round…
We are lost and found.

See the fire of desire
as the world burns down…
We are lost and found

Shiver

You caught me off guard; I didn’t see that coming.
It’s not like I didn’t know this day would come,
But to be honest, I wasn’t quite prepared.

You crept inside,
Stealthily,
Disarmingly,
Confusingly,
And leave the next step to me?

But it’s you that has the master plan!
It’s you on whom I rely!
I only fear that my affections will cause you
To see me as I truly am.

Scared, weak,
Impotent by the thought of your love
Your caress, your fragrance.
This is my penance for squandering away, as
Past gifts lay before my feet.

You are the enforcer of my karmic balance,
Yet I delight in this series of events.
I bask in the thought of you wrenching my heart,
As I have grown tired of running,
Running,
Running away
From myself.